Hi there, Thank you for coming to this website and for reading this letter. It's an amazing step. I've been in a similar place to where you are now, running out of reasons to stay. But things will get better.
Take small steps. A friend once told me ' imagine you are a child, what would you do/say'. Brush their teeth, go for a walk, give them some water, a little snack, a good film. Sometimes these things can be so hard, the ' little' things.
But they aren't little things, they're sometimes the biggest things you'll ever do because they are so difficult. And if you have anyone around you who you can speak to, please talk. And if that's a little too much right now, there are some wonderful helplines you can call/contact who can give you the support you deserve.
I have had such hard moments in my life. But now my life is full of joy. It's full of the best thing that ever happened to me, my daughter. If you keep pushing through you will feel that joy one day.
It feels so distant now but it will come. That doesn't make what you're going through easier, but I suppose it can give you hope. Something to aim for. A light at the end of the tunnel.
Things will not always be this way. You are so loved. You are so wanted in this world. Keep going.
Love, Someone who has been there