Hello I wish you didn't have to feel like you do and that world would've gone easier on you. I'm sorry that you are going through this but I want you to know that I know that you can get through this! II've felt overwhelmed and stuck before, even if my situation wasn't the same.
For me, things changed over time. Please keep going forward and find people who can help you and support you. There are still things to see, to learn and to experience in this world. Big hug and
lots of love to you